I started out this morning attempting to read Psalm 119. I read in Piercing The Darkness that it was the longest book in the Bible. I wandered around and found Psalm 51.
“Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight; so you are right in your verdict and justified when you judge. Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me. Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb; you taught me wisdom in that secret place.”
I am no wordsmith and I can’t begin to try and teach or explain this – or even why it stuck with me all day. I lay my Bible open and left it out throughout the day, glancing at it, periodically. It danced in my head randomly as I went about my day.
I am nowhere near where I ought to be and will not fake it or make you believe otherwise. I constantly fail, with every breath I take. I can’t give you words of wisdom about this when I do not follow the mandates of the Lord as I should.
I can only say that this entire chapter is devoted to one saying, “I’m a failure. You (God) are right to judge me. Please be kind.”
Thank you for listening,